Friday, 1 June 2007

A Long, Expensive Contemplation

I sit, writing to you now as I wait for a plane out of Madrid.
I've been hunkard down here for the last two days, trying to get out, but to no avial.
I arrived two days ago by train via Barcelona, the plane was to fly stand-by on the next flight to didn't work. Instead, I had to seek refugue in a hotel on the outskirts of Madrid, waiting for my schedualled flight out.
I would have rather spent a couple days extra in Cairo before departing for Uganda. It would have been considerably cheaper, more exciting and fun, but God has a funny way of working.

Until two days ago, I had been constantly busy, on the move, with people. I had not had time to sit and reflect on my experiances thus far, I hadn't been able to soak it all in.

Now drop yourself in Madrid, alone, with nothing to do but sit and wait...and reflect.

Things become almost overwhelming.

Looking back on the past month was all one big blur, a series of leasons, events jammed into a rather short amount of time.

Don't get me wrong, in no way is this a bad thing, quite the opposite really.

I've learned more about myself, my God and life in these last weeks then ever before.

I've in these last two days, I've slowly been able to make sense of God's calling on my life and the person I am.

Have I figured it all out?

Of course not, I think it takes a life time, but little by little things seem to clear up.

Life has been relatively easy for me but I understand that Life is rarely easy, nor should it be.

Where would we be if not for the pitfalls?

The times when we've had to pick ourselves up, or needed someone else to pick us up.
The times were it felt like we've crawled on our knees to get through a day, let alone a week, or even a year.
The times were we needed to sit, reflect and lick our wounds before pressing on.

Is it worth it to sit in the comforts of this world and never let yourself be broken?

“ Blessed are the poor in spirit,
For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn,
For they shall be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek,
For they shall inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
For they shall be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful,
For they shall obtain mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
For they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
For they shall be called sons of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake,
For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. 12 Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Matthew 5:3 (NKJV)

Is it worth it?

Grace, Peace and Blessings,

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